Kembali aku tidur dengan air mata

Dear Allah,
hari ini kmbali aq mngis sblm tidur, bkn krna tk mnsyukuri nikmatMu, (atw tptnya aq tk brmaksud bgitu),
ampun ya Allah, ya sudahlah, memang dr awal bknkah ini yg q ingnkan, jadi hamba mhon ikhlaskn hamba, ikhlskan hati ini ya Allah, please,
trkdang hamba mrsa sakit hati, ketika apa yg hmba ingnkan ditolak mntah2, apa yg hmba pikirkn slalu dnilai salah, seolah kbahagiaan hamba pun serasa tk brarti lg, tak apa, bknkah mmg kbahagiaan mereka yg slalu hamba pintakan pdMu ya Allah, krna hamba bahagia mlhat mreka bahagia, hamba lbih sakit melihat mreka sakit,
sdg biarlah, kebahagiaan itu sj yg hmba dpat, brharap Engkau mlmpahkan hati yg besar, keikhlasan yg tulus, krna kadang rsnya tk sanggup, tp pasti bs dengan bantuanMu. :"(

Benar2 merasa tak disayangi,

Dear Allah,
benar2 hamba merasa tak ada yg sayang pada hamba,
hanya Engkau saja yg hamba harap bs terus berada d samping hamba, hamba kesel, merasa benar2 tk dsayangi, tk ada yg mengerti, tk ada yg peduli, hambe kesel ya Allah,
benar2 kesel, kesel sekesel2nya,
benar2 mereka tk peduli,
semoga Engkau tidak ya Allah,
smoga Engkau menyayangi hamba,
mencintai hamba, mempedulikn hamba,
krna tk ada lg yg bs hamba hrpkan, melainkn pengharapan penuh padaMu. Aamiiin

Futur

Dear Allah,
lagi futur ni, yg ada d otak hamba negatif terus, maafin ya Allah,

masak satu kalimat drnya aja sdh mmbuatku mrasa sakit,

ampuuun ya Allah
smoga kfuturan ini sgera brlalu, Aamiiiin.

Ampun

Dear Allah,
ya Allah maaf,
maaf krna hati ini bgitu egois,
selalu ingin dicintai, slalu ingin dperhatikan, selalu ingin dino. satukn,
pdhal hamba blm tntu pantas utk itu smua,
hmba sedih ya Allah,
sedih, tp tenang ini hanya smntara, hamba kn kuat, pasti, tentu sj dengan kekuata yg Engkau berikan

di dlm keramaian aq msh mrasa sepi

Dear Allah,
ampuni hamba ya Allah,
krna hati ini bgitu plinplan, hamba merasa tk dsayangi, tk dcintai, ampun ya Allah, ampuuuun,
tetap tujuan hamba ini utk mmbahagiakan ortu hamba, hanya saja hamba benar2 mrasa sendiri, wlw d sini ramai, tp yakin Engkau slalu brsama hamba, Aamiin ya Allah.

jumat lagi

dear Allah,
udah Jumat, seneng, tinggal 5 hari lagi, dan serasa lama sekaliiiii, hehehe,
ampun ya Allah, walau aku tak bilang, Kau pasti tahu isi hatiku,
walau memang tetap harus ku ungkapkan, karena memang kau tempat hamba mengadu,

ya Allah,
hamba mohon berikan hamba jalan keluar untuk setiap permasalahan yang sedang hamba hadapi, Aamiiin ya Allah,

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

[Chorus:]
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

[Verse 2]
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

[Chorus]

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.

ingin pulang lagi

dear Allah,
maaf, hamba benar-benar minta maaf,
hamba masih nggak betah di sini, pengen segera pulang, tapi rasanya lama sekali 2 minggu ini,
tenangkan hati hamba ya Allah, hamba mohon,
Aamiiin,

salah lagi, hiks

dear Allah,
aku membuat kesalahan lagi, aku lupa,
jadi uangnya minus lagi dooong,
ya Allah, please tunjukkan aku jalan terbaik untuk ini,
tunjukkan kebenarannya,
hamba mohon ya Allah,
agar hamba bisa tenang,
hamba juga tidak ingin merugikan orang lain,
karena itu tunjukkan hamba jalannya ya Allah,
hamba mohon,
Aamiiiin,

kesel!!

Astaghfirullahal'adziim,
mohon ampun ya Allah,

dear Allah,
bukakanlah akal pikiran hamba ya Allah,
agar tidak terlalu sering melakukan kesalahan, atau kalau bisa, jangan sampai aku membuat kesalahan lagi,
bener-bener kesel kalo dimarah-marahin orang terus,
mungkin aku yang salah,
karena itu hamba mohon perrtolonganMu,
agar hamba tidak terlalu sering lagi melakukan kesalahan,
kesel, merasa tidak dihargai,
Astaghfirullahal'adziiim.

beautiful, ca

Spoken:
Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay


And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

stand up for love

There are times I find it's hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own

And how can I pretend that I don't know
what's going on?
When every second, and every minute another soul is gone?
And I believe
that in my life I will see
an end to hopelessness,
of giving up,
of suffering
CHORUS (first time)

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and hear me sing
Stand Up for love.

[Kelly]
Im inspired and hopeful each and everyday
thats how I know that things are gonna change.

So how can I pretend that I don't know
what's going on? When every second of every minute another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness,
of giving up,
of suffering


[CHORUS]

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love

[MICHELLE]

And it all starts right here
And starts right now
One person stands up and the rest will follow
For all the forgotten, for all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song

And I believe
that in my life I will see
an end to hopelessness,
of giving up,
of suffering

[CHORUS ]

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing, yea!
Stand up for love
for love

all the love in the world

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

fade out

Jumat yang indah, InsyaAllah!

dear Allah,
puji syukur, pagi ini hamba massih bernafas, jantung hamba masih berdetak, dan hamba harap tetap begitu hingga ita-cita orang tua hamba terwujud,
ya Allah,
apa kabar ya orang tuaku,
massih dalam lindunganMu kan?, aku yakin itu, karena Engkaulah tempat kami berlindung, yang selalu memberikan kami kekuatan,
yang tiada henti juga kami syukuri itu,
ya Allah,
masih terus meminta,
kuatkan hamba, bantulah hamba, karena Engkaulah sebaik-baik penolong bagi kami,
terima kasih, untuk rezeki yang kau alirkan pada kami,
akan kami coba membuka pintu-pintu rezeki yang lain pula,
tentu saja untuk membukanya perlu izin dariMu,
maka izinkanlah ya Allah,
Aamiiin ya rabbal'aalamiiin.

thank you Allah :)

untuk siapa??????

keinginan hatiku di depan mataku,
sayangnya kau belum juga merasa,

kau fikir aku ada, di sini untuk apa,
kau kira sejauh ini, ku datang untuk siapa

sangat ingin ku katakan,
ini untukmu,

kau pengaruh terpenting di dalam hidupku,
entah apa ku juga terpenting bagimu,

hiks,hiks

dear Allah,
pusing lagi nih ya Allah, hehehe kembali lagi aku padaMu,
nggak tahu tiba-tiba hati ini gundah, risau, bantu aku lagi ya ya Allah,
karena Engkaulah tempat hamba kemballi ketika hamba menemui pemasalahan,
Engkaulah sebaik-baik penolong ketika hamba sedang berada dalam kesusahan,
mohon bantuanNya ya.. ya Allah Tuhanku,

hiks, hiks