Ya Allah,
sebenarnya takdir macacm apa yang Kau suratkan untukku,
terbentuk suatu hati dalam diri yang hanya menunggu,
ku mohon jangan jadikan takdirku hanya sebagai suatu penantian panjang,

Ya Allah,
di belakangku begitu banyak orang yang ingin ku bahagiakan,
karena hal itulah yang telah mereka berikan untukku,

Ya Allah,
hamba mohon ampun karena hamba sering sekali berfikir bahwa apa yang hamba lakukan sia-sia,
apa yang hamba perjuangkan adalah apa yang tidak Engkau takdirkan untuk hamba,
Ampuni juga hamba,
karena terkadang hamba menyangka bahwa Engkau tak menyayangi hhamba,
karena hamba selalu menunggu apa yang sebenarnya amenjadi takdir hamba,

Ya Allah setelah kesalahan yang begitu banyak ini,
lantas kini hamba masih meminta,
hamba minta takdirkan hamba pada apa yang bisa membuat orang tua hamba, saudara, dan semua orang di sekitar hamba menjadi bahagia,
karena hamba begitu bahagia Engkau takdirkan memiliki mereka..

Aamiin!

i remember

I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

Do you remember..?
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

I remember.. The way you read your books,
yes I remember
The way you tied your shoes,
yes I remember
The cake you loved the most,
yes I remember
The way you drank you coffee,
I remember
The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
When we caught a shooting star,
yes I remember
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And the way you smile at me,
yes I remember

since i found you

i think of you in everything that i do
to be with you what ever it takes i’ll do
cause you my love, you all my heart desires
you’ve lighten up my life forever i’m alive

since i found you my world seems so brand new
you’ve show me the love i never knew
your presence is what my whole life through
since i found you my life begin so new
now who needs a dream when there is you
for all of my dreams came true
since i found you

your love shines bright
through all the corners of my heart
maybe you are my dearest heart
i give you all i have my heart, my soul, my life
my destiny is you
forever true… i’m so in love with you

since i found you my world seems so brand new
you’ve show me the love i never knew
your presence is what my whole life through
since i found you my life begin so new
now who needs a dream when there is you
for all of my dreams came true
since i found you

my heart forever true…
in love with you..

Begooooo

lolo nian,
ngapo la td bs ck itu!

aku ni memang lolo nian,
dak bs jg barang

ckmn nk nyenengin wong,
kl selalu nyusahin ck ni!

better than love

Seemed impossible, seemed absurd
I didn’t even know you before
Kept my distance, closing in
I don’t mind caressing your skin

**
What did you say, what did you do?
Somehow, I feel I’m enchanted by you
Flying high on a mountain high
Suddenly you look as bright as the sky

Something old, something new
Something I didn’t thought could be true
Have I forgotten, or have I never
Felt like this, as light as a feather

Not interested in love,
but I’m attracted to you
I hope that you feel the same way too
A little too fast but way too long
Though I’m not sure where I belong

**

Something old, something new
Something I didn’t thought could be true
Love’s too strong and a bit cliché
For now this is enough, I’ve got a long way
Something old, something new
Something I didn’t thought could be true
I’m afraid to ask but I need to know
Would you want me to stay?
Or would you want me to go?

“These are my feelings…
(These are my…
I hope you’ll understand… (understand…)
feelings…)
It might not be much,
but it’s more than I can spend….”

sejuk

hare ini cukup sejuk,
istirahat total di rumah,
sebenernya 'gk Total sih,
td nyetrika pakaian dikit,
tapi hr ini setidaknya tak terlalu melelahkan!

Indonesia orangnya 'ada' yg ramah!

td nemenin sepupu ke dusun 'prabumenang', orang2 'dusun' yg benar2 tulus, padahal br juga kenal,
Subhanallah....
kalo di kota mungkin kita2 tak akan disambut seramah itu,
hilang semua letih selama perjalanan karena senyum ikhlas dari setiap wajah mereka...

mungkin inilah yg katanya 'orang Indonesia ramah2'
baru kelihatan ni hari contohnya,
mungkinkah dulu setiap orang Indonesia itu ramah2, tapi kenapa sekarang cm orang 'dusun' aja yg ramah2?!
Aneh!

kan ku kenang hari ini,
setidaknya agar aku ingat, bahwa emang 'orang Indonesia' "ada" yang ramah!

Mungkinkah aku berharap lebih

benar-benar membuatku penasaran
aku bingung mau bertanya ke mana
karena memang tak akan pernah ada yang tahu
hanya Ia, yang tahu apa yang kan terjadi pada kehidupan ku

aku sungguh-sungguh penasaran
ke manakah harus ku cari jawaban dari pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini

apakah ini yg dibilang orang dengan pencarian suatu jati diri?
berarti aku sudah benar-benar terlambat....
bukankah kata orang pencarian jjati diri di masa-masa SMA kita,

Lantas akan jadi apakah aku kelak?

My life would suck without you

Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I’m nothing without you

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so disfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

bingung

hari ini pilu rasanya, hari raya idul fitri 1430 hijriah,

udah lewat satu ramadhan lagi, tapi udah rindu ramadhan selanjutnya,
masih begitu banyak yg harus diperbaiki, apalagi semua target tahun ini tak ada yg tercapai,

Ya Allah, benar2 hamba ini sesungguhnya termasuk dlam golongan yg merugi, ampun aku ya Allah,
mohon pertemukan kembai hamba dengan ramdhan tahun depan.

Aaamiiiin

......

punya ide tuk cerita novel br tp bingung mau dimulai dr mana?!

lagian sekarang medianya kurang
komputer ku tak bs digunakan
pake laptop ponakan sering rebutan,

kayaknya bakal coba nulis tangan dulu nih!

masaih sama

yaaah,
nasib pengangguran, stay home a long day,
bosen, pusing,
menanti nasib baik tiba....

BTN

yg laen pada nggak jd ikutan seleksi karyawan BTN, jadi ragu,
tapi kl nggak maju, kapan kerjanya,

semangat!!
nggak boleh ikutan wong laen!
kali b rezeki aku di sano!
aaamiiiin!

terserah

Dilembar putih ini
Kutuangkan semua perasaanku
Tentang diriku…
Cintaku pada dirimu

Dan kebisuan kita
Berawal disini tanpa sengaja
Terungkap juga rahasia diri
Antara aku dan dia

Mestinya kau tak perlu buka
Buku harianku
Hanya kan membuat dirimu
Tersiksa dalam rasa curiga

Terserah caramu kasih
Menilai diriku ini
Terserah bagaimana
Mengartikan isi hatiku
Tak perlu kau emosi
Kau pun sungguh berarti
Cintaku hanya untuk dirimu

pengen nangis terus,

masih merana dalam diam yg ku anggap berharga ini,
masih tenggelam dalam kepiluan hati yg kuharap segera hilang dengan diam ini,
menjadi tak berarti benar-benar menyakitkan,
terlebih berada di tengah orang-orang yg begitu mengharapkan hidupku,

masih menunggu takdir apa yg sebenarnya Allah pilihkan untukku,
aku tahu menuggu saja memang tak kan ada hasilnya,
tapi aku terlanjur kecewa dengan kehidupan ini,
aku tahu itu bodoh nmnya,
namun hati ini belum bergairah untuk memulai semuanya dari awal lagi,

aku takut,
aku terus membayangkan berapa banyak lagi airmata yg kan tertumpah untuk awal ini,